Blinded By Wants

A raw reflection on youthful greed guilt and the quiet sacrifices of a mother 'Blinded By Wants' confronts materialism with humility and deep emotional maturity

I wanted more than what we had
New clothes new games made me glad
A click a swipe her card in hand
Never thinking never planned

She worked till night six days straight
While I spent like luck controlled my fate
Every gift a debt unpaid
Every want a choice she made

The walls of the stores felt cold and bright
Temptation whispering in the light
Hands too quick a price unpaid
A stolen rush a choice I made

Reebok sneakers fresh and white
Nintendo games that felt so right
Thought they were mine thought no one knew
But shame would come the guilt ran through

She gave she gave with no complaint
A mothers love no need for thanks
I took I took I never saw
The weight she carried the lines it drew
**ពោះរបស់ខ្ញុំឆ្អែតប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំនៅតែឃ្លាន**
*I was full but I was starving*

Blinded by wants I couldnt see
The hands that fed were bleeding for me
Dressed in new but wrapped in lies
A selfish child with shut-out eyes

Blinded by wants I chased the glow
Too late to learn what I shouldve known
Now I stand where she once stood
Wishing Id understood

Now I hold my child soft and small
And I see her face through it all
The nights she worked the days she gave
So I could have the life she made

It took the years to understand
Love isnt gold love isnt grand
Its sacrifice its quiet pain
Its giving all with none to gain

She gave she gave with no complaint
A mothers love no need for thanks
I took I took I never saw
The weight she carried the lines it drew
**ខ្ញុំយល់តែវាយឺតពេលទៅហើយ**
*I realized too late*

I was full but I was starving
Blinded by wants I couldnt see
The hands that fed were bleeding for me
Dressed in new but wrapped in lies
A selfish child with shut-out eyes

Blinded by wants I chased the glow
Too late to learn what I shouldnt know
Now I stand where she once stood
Wishing Id understood

If I could go back whisper low
Tell that boy what he should know
That every coin every dime
Was her sacrifice not just mine
**សូមទោសម៉ែ ខ្ញុំធ្វើឱ្យអ្នកយំ**
*Sorry mom I made you cry*

She never asked she never spoke
But love was there in all she broke
Blinded by wants I couldnt see
But love was always carrying me