Fading Away

A stark portrayal of depressions weight the internal war unseen by others and the faint persistent voice that chooses to stay

I sat in a room that felt too small
The walls were closing I felt nothing at all
The world kept spinning but I stood still
Trapped inside the silence trapped inside my will

I saw my reflection but I wasnt there
Just a shadow in the empty air
No one noticed no one cared
I could scream but they wouldnt hear

Would they miss me if I disappeared
Would they cry if I was no longer here
I was tired I was breaking
Every thought kept suffocating
ខ្ញុំចង់ចាកចេញពីទុក្ខសោកទាំងឡាយ I thought about leaving

I was fading fading away
Like a ghost lost in the grey
A voice inside said just let go
But another whispered no hold on
I was breaking drowning inside
No one saw the war in my mind
I was fading fading away
But something told me stay

I wrote my pain in lines unseen
On pages torn from silent screams
No one knew the war I fought
Every breath felt like a battle lost

I thought about the final step
If I let go would they forget
Would my name fade into dust
Did I matter was I enough

Would they miss me if I disappeared
Would they cry if I was no longer here
I was tired I was breaking
Every thought kept suffocating
ខ្ញុំចង់ចាកចេញពីទុក្ខសោកទាំងឡាយ I thought about leaving

I was fading fading away
Like a ghost lost in the grey
A voice inside said just let go
But another whispered no hold on
I was breaking drowning inside
No one saw the war in my mind
I was fading fading away
But something told me stay

And in the silence I heard my breath
Still alive not gone yet
Maybe pain is just a storm
And after rain the sun is born
I dont know why I stayed that night
Why I fought why I survived
But maybe somewhere down the line
Ill find the reason Im still alive
ខ្ញុំនៅតែរស់នៅ Im still alive

I was fading fading away
Like a ghost lost in the grey
But something told me stay